I neglected to mention in my last post that I cancelled my plans to meet up with a friend on Saturday because of my ‘down day’. This was a bit of a shame, because it would have been another thing ticked off on the small things lists. Nevertheless, thinking about it now, I feel that I made the right decision in postponing the visit. I wasn’t at all at my best on Saturday – notwithstanding the hangover I felt small, quiet and insignificant. Rather than forcing myself through the stressful and unpleasant experience of trying to pretend that everything was okay, I think it was better to take a little time to get myself back on track.
It’s far nicer spending time with people when the fog isn’t crowding in and I think I’ve decided that a better experience is available if you are honest and realistic about what you can and can’t do on any given day. With this in mind I’m looking forward to catching up with my friend when I’m more myself instead of (as would normally be the case) beating myself up about past failures.