Never laugh again

I’m not having a good day and I’m sorry I’m to be sharing this kind of post with you again but I need to talk to somebody and everybody is busy so you guys get the pleasure of a sobbing WeeGee.

I can’t believe what a difference a day can make – bouncing around laughing one day and filled full of nothing the next. I was supposed to bounce around for a while and then settle down nicely. Why does my brain never do what it’s supposed to?

Today I have mostly hated myself for the following reasons:

  • I’ve been living on complan for two days now because my appetite disappeared when I was sick and every time I tried to eat something I got the ‘refeeding horrors’
  • I think I disappointed somebody so much that they don’t like me anymore. This makes me sad because you know all that bouncing around trying to make people laugh I do? Well I mostly do that because I kind of need people to like me.
  • I have come to the conclusion that I am far too mental to even think about getting to know people who didn’t know me before I was mental which puts a bit of a spanner in the all new WeeGee works
  • Mum and dad couldn’t come to visit today because WeeGee was sick and WeeGee’s mum can’t be around sick people
  • I answered the phone to Mr Friendly so that I could be reminded how  utterly inadequate I am as a human being

To be honest I could write a much longer list of all the things I hate about myself but those are the main ones and I’ll leave it at that.

Right now I am sobbing. I’m sobbing for everything – for the last two years of my life, for all the things that will never happen, for all the emptiness there is to come.

…… And if somebody could tell a joke about now that would be just super because it feels like I might never laugh again.

I can’t send you any love today because there isn’t any of that in my heart

WeeGee x

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29 comments

  1. A bear and a bunny are in the woods taking a shit. The bear turns to the bunny and asks, “do you have trouble with shit sticking to your fur?” The bunny replies, “no, not at all.” So the bear picks up the bunny and wipes his ass with it.

  2. Hi WeeGee..here’s a Jack Handey quote that will hopefully make you smile :

    “If you go parachuting, and your parachute doesn’t open, and you friends are all watching you fall, I think a funny gag would be to pretend you were swimming.”

    If that one didn’t do it for you, there are heaps of others. Jack Handey always cheers me up 🙂

  3. Sending you hugs because I don’t know of any jokes.

    To give you an idea of my sense of humour…

    When someone attempts a joke involving a waiter and a bowl of soup, my first reaction is to question, ‘Why are they going to a restaurant to eat soup? Don’t they have a microwave at home??’. 😛

  4. Hi WeeGee, I’m sorry for the very rough emotional patch you’re in right now. You are a likeable person as-is. 🙂 Friends are simply to double joy and divide sorrow/hard times. You are still a bright light even when the clouds try to distort the view. With all my heart & hugs! 🙂

  5. you know what ruins our bouncing around happy times? Other people! Most of your list consisted of what other people are doing and thinking. They weren’t the ones that made you have a happy heart in the first place, why let them take it away? Here’s hoping that the happiness you found yourself will make another go of it! xx

  6. I like you!! I’m so sorry you’re hurting! You now I’m trying to think of a joke and of course when you have to think of one, is when they don’t come! I am funny though…maybe that’s a joke! 😉

    Just a side note to invite you to my new site, I’m missing everyone. If you want to come by you will have to sign in the side bar with your email address.
    I hope you feel better soon! xo

    1. Aww thanks lovely. Just seeing you pop up to comment made me smile. I’ve signed up for your new site. I’ll have a proper nosy about shortly but it’s looking pretty damn good to me xxxx

  7. I can send some love to you WeeGee and I’m sorry to hear you’re having a bad one today. Tomorrow will be better, you’ll see. Feel better soon.

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