Bumps in the road

I thought I’d start today with a huge, massive and very public thank you to one of my very favourite blogging buddies who did an awesome job of helping me get myself pointed in the right direction again last night. I love the fact that I can have a shocker of a day and someone who I have never met will pop up and say ‘Hey WeeGee here are loads of hugs and let’s have a little chat about what’s going on and see if we can’t figure it out’ And then we have a little chat and pretty much figure it out. The Internet is AWESOME and so is Bourbon who writes a brilliant blog and is mental health blogging royalty in my book….. Love you loads, Bourbon xxxx

As far as yesterday is concerned here is what I have to say: Dear Yesterday, I’m glad you’re over with because you were rubbish. Please can you never darken my door again? Lots of love, WeeGee

Today I have spent a lot of time trying to figure out what went so badly wrong yesterday. Here’s what I’ve figured out so far:

  • I was tired, under nourished and poorly
  • I was disappointed that I couldn’t see my parents especially because it was my fault because I was unwell
  • I was looking forward to seeing my parents because I was all better and enthusiastic and I wanted them to know they had their daughter back after everything she had put them through
  • I was beginning to feel a bit overwhelmed by online dating
  • As to whether I had disappointed anyone – it occurred that other people’s feelings were nothing to do with me and things always turn out of the best in the end
  • All of those things made me vulnerable and I’m not very good at being vulnerable

When I got up this morning I decided that I wasn’t going to talk to anybody that I didn’t want to. I think I’ve been being a bit too polite about talking to people recently. I think the point I’m making that Mr I’m Very Probably Normal is all well and good but Mr I’m Very Probably Awesome is where I’d rather spend my time. There aren’t very many of them at all, so it isn’t overwhelming and all is well again.

I spent most of today doing AWESOME things like running all the way to Hampton court and then realising I had to run all the way back as well because I’d missed the river boat and there were no trains and then spending a few pretty perfect hours teaching Little Miss Hilarious how to make pom poms* Little Miss Hilarious is awesome because a) she dishes out the best cuddles in the world, b) she takes learning how to make pom poms so seriously that she asks her daddy to write down all the steps for her so she doesn’t forget and c) she gets to the end of her visit and says ‘why are you wearing that outfit? Which was hilarious because I was indeed in strange attire** but adults would be too polite to mention it and what’s wrong with a bit of honesty

As for this evening I shall be watching strictly come dancing. I hope that you thought I am far too cool for that kind of thing and you’d be absolutely right because I only watch it in an ironic way…..

The headline today is that yesterday was little more than a bump in road and I’m back on track again now thank you very much

Huge massive hugs and loads of love to make up for yesterday WeeGee xxxxx

*I think that Mr and Mrs Hilarious could have figured out how to do this themselves and the visit was purely to make sure I wasn’t totally mental. Which is cool

**In my defence, I wasn’t expecting company

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10 comments

  1. You can’t blame yourself for being ill; that is something that happens to everyone. It’s certainly not your fault that you didn’t get to see your parents on this occasion. There will be plenty more opportunities. 🙂

    That day has passed; left behind and moving in only one direction.

    Online dating is indeed overwhelming but, I imagine that your opinions are only shared with the majority of other women using these sites. I’ve mentioned before that I don’t get very far with it and I wonder if it is because I’m perceived as being ‘probably normal’ or average. A lot of female profiles I’ve seen make themselves out to be extraordinary and, I’d assume now that most women are looking for the same – high expectations, pressure, and all that… (I’m not accusing you personally).

    I also appreciate that it is quite different for women, in the sense that there are plenty of deranged perverts out there who will send you the most absurd and disrespectful messages! All I’ve had (aside from the three I’ve met) are an attempted sex/web chat from one girl and another woman who was demanding my number… 😛

    …I must write this post very soon!! 😉

    After almost one year online, I’m not sure if I’d recommend it to a friend. It’s certainly worth a try but, there are no extra guarantees. It can be demoralising and even soul destroying, in my experience. I can’t imagine it’s any worse than meeting someone in a nightclub.

    I’d rather encourage people to join a group of evening class, as I’m doing, in the hope of meeting others where you certainly have at least one item in common. On the internet, people will view and read your profile (perhaps also a message) before making a judgement. In a group or activity situation, someone is more likely to take their time and get to know you.

    My six-month subscription to Match expires tomorrow night. I’ve been offered a free month if I resubscribe but, I’m not sure if I’ll bother.

  2. I’m intrigued…. What were you wearing!
    You’re welcome, of course. I’m glad I was of help. It turns out the safe den I’ve made for the littles is as comforting for me. I go in there to have some alone time and that is where I was texting you. Just glad you are feeling better. And hope you can see your parents again soon 🙂 much love xox

    1. My ridiculous sock’s my pulled up to my knees over some leggings….. It’s my “my feet are cold and I’m not going anywhere outfit’

      Love back – I’m so glad the den is working out for you and the littles xxxx

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