Birthday blues

Before I get to today’s update I have a couple of those points of order that pop up every so often to take care of…..

Point of order number one: I officially suck at reading blogs at the moment and I’m sorry about that. I love you all lots, and I miss you more, but my time is all filled up with grown up ‘need to do’ stuff and reading your blogs has fallen down towards the bottom of the pile. I promise I’ll be back shortly but in the meantime will you forgive me?

Point of order number two: Does everybody know that ‘How do you eat an elephant?’ has a Facebook page? No? Well it does. You can find it here:

https://www.facebook.com/HungryElephant

I’m one follower short of 30, and apparently when you get to 30 magic things start happening…… Go on – it will surely improve your life ☺

The End of the point of order section.

Since I last blogged I’ve been a busy little WeeGee. I’ve been getting myself all sorted out, and organised and back on track. I’ve also been having one of my (fairly extended) little thinks. After all, what would the WeeGee be without one of her little thinks?

In five days time I’m going to be having a birthday. Having a birthday shouldn’t be a big deal because everybody has one, like once a year and stuff, but it feels like a pretty big deal to me right now. I spent my last birthday hiding in my little hidey hole*, pacing about, and being TOTALLY MENTAL before doing myself a small mischief and presenting myself at A&E because I didn’t have anywhere else to go. It was whatever the opposite of tremendous fun is.

Birthdays bring out The Dreaded Jitters in me. I don’t really know why, except that maybe it’s the one day of the year when people seem to want you to be the centre of attention which actually only really means that they want you to be ‘happy’ even if you don’t feel much like being happy. Maybe I don’t like the ‘expectations’ that are associated with birthdays? Maybe I’ve had enough miserable birthdays to last me a lifetime? Maybe this is just WeeGee being an idiot and it’s about time she POKED HERSELF IN THE EYE?

If I shut out the anxiety** my upcoming birthday is looking pretty peachy. I’ve got a few days away with Mr Awesome Thing Number Five to look forward to. AND I’m going to spend a morning feeding some penguins***. AND mum and dad are coming to visit. AND I’m off work. AND I’ve got a very exciting new birthday handbag.

It’s all a bit ‘what’s not to like’ and I really wish I could shake this weird ‘I don’t like birthdays because they make me a bit mental’ thing. But hey – you know me and my brain. It doesn’t always make sense…..

Aside from all that WeeGee is doing pretty good. I’ve got a fantabulous ‘how far I’ve come’ post lined up for you but I’m going to take my time writing it because it’s an important one.

Meanwhile in other news here’s a lovely little Frank Turner song for you. I might have shared it before but what’s a bit of repetition amongst friends?

Nothing else to report today save that I love you all loads and loads like……. Roman roads???

WeeGee xoxox

*Rhio – TOTALLY tongue in cheek xoxox
** Just like that!
***Which is AS COOL AS PENGUINS

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18 comments

  1. Hi, WeeGee. I relate to your jitters on birthdays — I had them most of my life. My answer: be yourself. You don’t have to meet anyone else’s expectations. And if they ask why you aren’t totally elated, you DON’T have to tell them anything. Believe me, most are asking this question to put the focus on you instead of themselves. They may be scared to be who they are. Have a birthday, and I hope it’s a day you’ll start looking forward to, a little. Remember, you feel how you feel, and you don’t have to explain anything to anyone. 😎

  2. I’m sorry that birthdays are difficult, I feel the same about Christmas – there is the expectation to be happy, but why would I be happy on that day if I’m not happy?! (End of mini rant!) I hope your birthday was lovely, and I want to hear about those penguins and your few days away! I know you don’t like birthdays, but sending birthday wishes anyway! Hugs xxx

  3. “Life is what happens while you’re busy making plans.”
    Don’t sweat it sweetie, we all know what that’s like. I’m just delighted to hear that you are (mostly) having an awesome time a whole lot more often these days. 🙂

  4. Nothing to forgive!

    Hope the magic is happening on your fb page 😉

    Hope you ave a great birthday, you deserve it x

  5. Lol – roman roads… muppet 🙂 Yes I forgive you… Just having your presence/support on fb is enough 🙂 you’ve got your priorities right and THAT is all that matters xx sending lots of love to you xx

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